Sometimes I lose sight of the vastness of God. I look to my own life and it feel like it's out of control - but really it's that I've put myself in control rather than God. I get caught up in what's going on around me and what's going on in my own life that I forget, really, I need to be denying myself, picking up my cross and following Jesus.
It's like the stars are God and the city lights are what's going on in and around me; and through the light pollution I can't see God and what he is trying to tell me, or change in me. Because really, if we aren't letting God constantly mould and change us, what are we really doing as Christians? We should be letting God call us outside of our comfort zones. We should be placing our insecurities, our brokenhearts, our addictions, our relationships, all in God. We often place these things, and everything else, in ourselves and it consumes us.
I lose sight that he created me - and he knows the pain that I go through. I lose sight of the fact that, through Jesus the curtain in the Tabernacle was torn and now, instead of residing there, he resides here, in me. I lose sight that God is a compassionate God that heals, phsically, spiritually and emotionally.
I lose sight of that fact that if I lack love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control I just need to lean more into the Holy Spirit who will bring these things out in me. (Notice: patience was in bold. Lord, Father, help me on this one, I need it).
I lose sight. A lot. Too much. Help me. Change me Lord.
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